An adjective people throw around
when feeling energetic or unfocused.
A joke for most is a reality for me.
Countless days witnessing
the sunrise and sunset,
medicating myself on
two melatonin gummies
as an attempt to force
my brain to rest.
Insomnia
Tabs upon tabs of assignments
untouched because my brain
struggles to take a deep breath
in the constant flood.
The tiniest bit of background noise
and movement in class
pull my attention from lessons.
Zoning out no matter how hard I try,
Do you even care what I have to say?
Inattention
My brain powered by a motor
and I can’t seem to find the off switch.
I struggle to remain still,
hands fidgeting and legs bouncing.
Excessive talking I struggle to control,
Do you ever shut up?
and Stop interrupting me!
Hyperactivity
Grain size problems make me feel
overwhelmed, anxious, and irritated.
My body goes into panic
and I struggle to breathe.
The watch on my wrist flashing
warning me of my heart rate, 125 BPM.
Overstimulation
Stimulants help me feel improvement,
this must be what it feels like to be normal.
I am hit in the face with my toughest battle,
loss of appetite and weight loss.
The remarks of others,
Wow, you are very thin
and Eat a hamburger or something
do wonders to improve my problem
that I cannot control.
My six-hour timer ends
and I am back to being me.
Concerta
Haylee Silvia is a poet born and raised in Falmouth, Massachusetts. A Cape Cod local who loves watching the waves at the beach. She enjoys spending quality time with her family and going on spontaneous adventures with friends.
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